now's my turn
hello.
i got damn sian when i read wen's, and then pp's, message. but i thought okay, we could still meet anyway. then when pp sent the cancellation message, i was plain annoyed. frankly, i was looking forward to the meeting and i did make a conscious effort to block the day. though i really can't help it that it's my brother's birthday tmr and if i don't go for dinner with my family my dad will just be pissed at me.
so i was pissed at ebi for not being able to make it for lunch, then when i found out it was pp who mistook her 10-12 lecture as being free only for the evening, i got pissed at him instead. and then i found out joan was pissed. great.
then i stopped to think that this was really all a miscommunication, and that pp was probably annoyed too cos all his effort in planning came to nothing. so ebi and i started to think of ways of how we'd resolve this, and also apologize to joan.
but, i am glad that joan got pissed off. because in a way, it has brought out in the open an underlying issue among us that we have not addressed since our jc/poly days. and that is that people like me haven't been as gracious with my time unlike joan and wen. even during their poly days when they had projects or tests, they'd still meet us up. but when the jc people had their tests, friendships were just put on hold.
still, when i say i miss you all i DO mean it. and i was really happy when pp changed the template of the blog, because there was this feeling that someone still bothered and this blog wasn't dying.
on my part, i will try to be a better friend. and i am sorry to all for anything i might have done that has antagonized the dynamics between us as a whole or you as an individual. and from now on, just tell or slap me if you have to.
indeed, i hope that when we finally meet we can laugh this episode away. and that we continue on with our treasury of time for the great many years ahead of us..
2 Comments:
alright...i had to say this, i mean since we're putting things on the table anyway. =)
i assumed by the time ebi finished her lecture, got out of school, and travelled to meet us, it'd be at least 1+ 2, and since you gotta leave early...yup and the rest is self-explanatory in the previous post.
oh and yeah..i remember last week you said you couldn't make it sat night cos you were eating with your parents. Then you said you had to go to church and bring kids on a lantern trail. then it was to celebrate ur bro's birthday. so i was kinda confused in the end..but i guess you're right, family commitments can't be helped..
eve emailed me to apologize. but like i told her, there's no need for anyone of you to apologize to me. because if anyone had to apologize, i'd have to do it too. because I must have contributed to what we've ended up becoming and i've probably been too indifferent too much of the time.
whatever it is. let's just work together towards our next meeting. and it better be one that works out because if we're going to end up getting pissed at each other again then we're better off with nothing.
Post a Comment
<< Home