its over yay yay..... for now...

yay i'm finally online!!! i'm freed from jcts!

this has been a real long a horrible week. the first half of the week was totally horrendous

firstly, i have been sleeping like ay 3 or 4am for the last week of the holidays. when school reopened, immediately have jct. that monday, i totally cannot sleep at all. that goes for tuesday as well.

monday night, i totally broke down. stared at the big pile of notes that i haven't touched. and the clock ticking away. when i say big pile, i really mean big pile. like 3 arch files fully filled kind of thick. so i wailed the whole night and couldn't sleep... and i have 2 papers the next day. anyway, that night, i was SO sure i was going to crash and have depression. i was so tempted to skip school and skip the whole blardee jct.

i'm glad i didn't. or else i will never be able to face myself for being such a pussy. running away from jct. and its only jct. but ya, dunno why i was that stressed.

then on wednesday night. gawd my mum was so close to having a heart attack. i was so damn scared. only me and my mum were having dinner at home. then she went to the toilet, and the next thing i know, she's calling out for help. she was like having chest pains and all. and for the first time in my life, i was my mum sweating. she was like in total pain. while i went to get warm water for her in the kitchen, she fell onto the ground. omg i was so shocked. then my maid and i hurried over.... she was totally gasping like a fish out of water. then she was complaining how giddy she was.... then she asked me if our house is experiencing tremors from earthquake again. for the record, the house then was as stable as mr wall. just as i was desperately phoning for the ambulance, my dad rushed home just in time, and sent her to the hospital. she was like, puking all over at that time. i didn't go to the hospital with her, cos i was like only in my nightie with no underwear on whatsoever.

was so worried she was going to die or sth. like, i feel so not fillial. should have gone marketing with her more often. should have went golfing with her more often. and i feel even more evil cos i just scolded her for any how switching channels. at that moment, i realised like. WTH was i so worried abt on tuesday night? it was just blardee jcts!!! compared to impt stuff like my mum, what exactly is jct?!?!?! its just some stupid common test!!! i wouldn't mind failing every single test so long my mum is alright.... totally couldn't study at all that night........

and in the end, my mum just had food poisoning and indigestion, after being observed at the hospital for 6 hours. thank God it didn't develop into heart attack with all her panicking.

whoah this is a long post.... =P

anw, i realise that i have been very blessed with friends like u guys,and a family too. getting things into proportion... i now realise that wth jct is just jct!